Wednesday, April 25, 2012


So now is the time that I really start to stress and become a "vampire" as it is appropriate. I see very little sun/daylight period, and when I do, it burns... Well not really "burns," but you get the idea. It is now the final stretch of the semester. One week of classes is left and then it is the dreaded finals week. Which means cramming for these monstrous tests. So I am now holed up in my room, catching up on the work I either neglected to do earlier or just need to do to finish the semester off.

So the final count of work (and I will update this in future posts if I find the time):
16 or so labs for one class
1 programming project
1 rough draft/final draft final paper
4 songs to memorize for a jury performance
plus any work I get in my classes that I still have left.

Lots of work, yet nothing I'm too worried about. I've been working quite a bit and getting paid. Dressing classy, and counting the days till I go home for the summer. Hopefully, by the end of the semester I will have my drivers license! Which means my roommate may teach me standard before we leave for the summer.

Keep Calm and Don't Blink

J. Curtis

Thursday, April 12, 2012


I'm sure everyone has those days were they see something that reminds them of their past, and then from that point on, for the rest of the day, it leads to other nostalgic moments... Am I right? Hello? Anyone? No one?

Oh well. So mine started when I saw this one meme cartoon ( -> So very true) and then I just had to listen to the song. After that, I remembered some other songs that I used to listen to, and continued to look them up on These include They might be giants - experimental film, and a couple strong bad email songs (Different town and TROGDOR!). Must watch TROGDOR if you have no clue what it is ( Oh the good old days. *sigh* Where one had no care in the world and just had the free time to do whatever one wanted.

Now I watch a fair amount of anime, and one of my favorites is "Fairy Tail." When I first started watching it, I noticed that a few of the characters I had seen in other mangas and anime series. So I looked up the author, and behold, he wrote the "Rave Master" series as well! So he incorporated a few characters, and made references to his other works with names and places.

So again. nostalgia day ahead. Maybe it will be inspiring! Until next we meet:

J. Curtis signing off.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Mental Meltdown...

So as of the last few days, I have been going through a mental meltdown. I cannot focus on any of my work for more than a few minutes, and relaxing is out of the question. If I try to quiet my mind, I just get garbled nonsense from all the different things that are bothering me.

My main concern right now is to finish off the school year (four weeks of classes, then finals) and get home. Yet that is becoming more difficult by the day. This past weekend, I was told by one of my doctors that they wish to put me on an injection or infusion (my choice). This new medication would cut back on my flare ups, and let me live without a constant fear of when one will strike. Sounds great, right? Well it does, until you get to the side effects. The problem with both of these medications is, when combined with what I am already on, based on my gender and age group, fatal infections and strains of cancer have emerged. So why not switch the pills I'm on? I have rejected and had bad reactions to most of what is out there. So granted that these fatal "infections" do not always occur in every patient, but the risk is still very high. So now I await further information on the other injections and infusions available.

The issue with injections, is that I would have to administer them myself, and with my track record, not such a comforting thought. The infusion would be every two months, while the injection is every two weeks (another set back).

So with four weeks of classes left, work is starting to pill up, and I am slowly keeping up. Tests are coming and going, and it is almost time to register for next falls classes. So now I am also being pressured into keeping my grades up, and getting good grades in all my classes. Oh joy! I have toyed with the idea of taking a semester or a year off, and taking a couple classes at my community college, but at the same time, that is not really ethical or economical for me. Yet the thought is still there.

Lastly, my mind has been wandering to thoughts of a special someone. I miss her everyday, but it is something that I have to work through. Though I would like to talk to her everyday, I tend to get too busy to do so, even for a simple "Hey" or "How are you?" I just hope I haven't screwed anything up between us (and that is my greatest fear).

Struggling onward:

J. Curtis

Sunday, April 1, 2012

Working Weekend.

As a college student, it is hard to find the perfect balance between relaxing, having a social life, and studying for classes. As such, I have been ahead of my school work, to really far behind on my work, and somewhere in the middle. Right now I would decree myself to be in the middle to behind category. So as of right now, outside of meals and the occasional chat online or text chat, I have no life. My goal is to work on a couple of assignments per class per day, and then pass the rest of the work by getting ahead. Will this ideally happen? We'll soon find out.

Though I will say, I have found some more inspiration for my poems, as of late, and will soon post one. So until then, enjoy this incomplete poem...

I'll give to you
The time I have
But not expect the same

For what you do
And why I love you
Is cute in every way

Worlds apart
From the start
Yet still we play the game...

Until next time:

J. Curtis